An Unpayable Debt

An unfeigned hollering, with concomitant glinting eyes, animadverting at the infirmary to woo the dear ones – yeah! That’s how… that is how we all begin our journey (or say life) as an infant. May be the most joyous moment for parents. This fugacious moment transforms their whole world at the blink of an eye. Just one touch of soft feeble hands and all the priorities are changed forever. Thus, parturition leads to the offset of not one but three new lives at the same time.

You must be wondering, why am I telling you all this?  The reason is simple. Have you ever pondered, what could have been your lives without parents? What could have possibly happened if no one was there to hold your hand when you had fallen? What could have been the prospects of survival? Who would have squandered their life to make your existence worth? Who would have spent umpteen watchful and ungratified nights for you when you fell ill? I have been cogitating for months and all I can say is… even one day without father or mother, whoa! It’s horrifying. A shiver runs down the spine. Had not been there my parents, then who would have hold my hand and taught me how to walk? Who would have impelled me to eat that extra bite just to make sure that I wasn’t hungry? These countless questions keep on gyrating in my head every day and night. But to be honest with myself, I don’t want an answer to anyone of them, because the answers are obvious and crucifying.

“Family is the most important thing in the World.”

Dictionary says, Family — A social unit living together. Really? Is that so? I don’t believe so. If it were just a social unit, then how could it be the most important thing? You don’t outlay your life for a social unit. You don’t strive for well being of a social unit, do you? Then what is it that makes this so called social unit ‘A Family’, where your needs and wishes are given prime importance. The connection remains a mystery for obtuse mind like mine. I consider myself lucky… lucky enough to have an adorable and caring family. But I wonder how I would pay back the debt of their love, tutelage, affection & care.

All I am I owe to my father. I attribute all my success in life to the moral, intellectual and physical education I received from him. He usually says that I am his whole life. He works tirelessly day and night just to make sure that I get what I want. Well, for me he is no less than a genie. I don’t know how he does it or why he does it. All I know is, I sleep soundly at night and wake up gayly in the morning. I make mistakes intrepidly because I know my genie is gonna catch me whenever I fall. I walk down the road to Damascus blindfoldedly at times because I know he is there to steer me in right direction.
Papa, thank you for being there. I want to tell you, I love you more than anything else in this world. I owe you my life. But I can’t repay the debt… for this debt is unpayable.

– Akshay Kaushal.